Today was awsome, I woke up installed a radio for the pizza guy, earned some money. Then I went to work, goofed off a bit, then came home. Quick, Simple, and reletivley stress free!

I woke up early, did a planogram at work, made meg laugh alot, then went to school but left because I failed at math, then went to my friend kennys house in sharon. I havent seen him in awhile and it was good hanging out again. He is going to pay me some good money to make a video about his monther for a memorial kinda thing.

I want spring to come already. I love driving my car around and come summer im going to the beach alot.


Damnit i love my new headphones it allows me to escape the maddness which is my house. yes!

Yes! Today I awoke naturally it was awsome. I felt great, I went downstairs and worked on my car for a few hours before work. Then I arrived at work and goofed off all day having alot of fun abusing the Paging system to go back and fourth with Peter. It was all good fun. Around 4pm time stopped and I crawled forward at such a very irritating pace.

I left work to bring some car parts to my friend Dave in norwood because he is leaving for college and needed them before he left and cant drive his car. Me, Dave, and brandon sat around most of the night and watched the baseball game a bit and goofed off. We went to taco bell and then I went home to wash my uniform.


I heard a good song today on my new CD....its so true too.

This is the lyrics to Serj Tankian's song from his album "elect the dead" called "money"

Money,
All for money,
Save your money,
Hide your money,
Stuff your money,
Hump your money
Keep your money
All for money,

Waning patience
People's appetite
Disposition
This possession
Dispossessed from all the attractions,
Dancing bears of eroticism,
Self absorbed delusion
Inclusion of dysfunction
I now await the triumphant
Lost baggage, train station,

The causes of ineptitude
Can be traced to my mandatory down,
The causes of my servitude
Can be traced to the tyranny of

Money,
All for money,
Make your money,
Hide your money,
Stuff your money,
Hump your money
Save your money
All for money,

My final surrender
Away from inclusion
I now await the triumphant
Left baggage, train station,

The causes of ineptitude
Can be traced to my mandatory down,
The causes of my servitude
Can be traced to the tyranny of a down
The causes of ineptitude
Can be traced to my mandatory down,
The causes of my servitude
Can be traced to the tyranny of

Money,
All for money,
Make your money,
Hide your money,
Stuff your money,
Hump your money
Save your money
Make your money,
Hide your money,
All for money,
Make your money,
Hide your money,
Stuff your money,
Hump your money,
Save your money,
All for money,
Money, money, money, money.

My day went like as follows:

Stress, School, Joy, Work, Joy, stress, stress induced adreniline, stress, and anxiety.


I woke up this morning late for school by an hour because i was up late thanks to my stupid family keeping me up. I woke up at 8:30 got to school at 9 and was pretty relaxed most of the morning, enjoying an easy class. I get out of class around 11:30 and take the T Tops off my car. It was a beautiful sunny hot day. I finally got to drive the MR2 with the roof off in nice weather, I was comfortable and the car drove great! It brought me nothing but pure joy.

I arrived at work, and changed into my uniform that had been sitting on the floor of my car for a few days so it really stunk. I spend most of my work day talking to Meggi. I really love talking to her, she makes the day more tolorable and fun. I went on break around 4pm when meg was leaving. We were gonna go biking sometime when she was babysitting, and so I followed her to wallmart to help her find a child carrier for a bike. She was indecisive and i cant blame her, they were expensive. She didnt stick around for subway cause she had to get ready so i ate alone. I got back to work and I started to get really tired and sick feeling. I dont know why.

Meggi came back with the little girl she babysits. But she was there to get discounted parts for her ex boyfriend Joe. Me and her talked and when he showed up I ended up punching out because I was tired and wanted to go home to take a shower. I left work and went home. I got into my room which was destroyed and was instantly bothered by my family. I stressed out really quickly and left. I went back to autozone and out of anger I bought fog lights for my car to try and keep my mind off the stress.

It didnt work. I got back home and the sky turned really really dark and black as if to say "Fuck you brian" and mother nature turned against me. I went up my house and started getting really fucking angry, My heart racing, and my nerves shot i sat there. For most of the night I started having severe Anxiety. I started thinking that my actions at work might have been missinterperted as something else, and then I started getting really anxois because none of my friends would answer the phone and no one was around.... Dave was at a baseball game, Dave Bazer was with his girl friend, Jon was with his friends, corey was gone, and joe is a bum. Meggi didnt answer either, even though she told me to call her. I sit here now listening to Serj Tankian and contemplating what I can do to make monday get here sooner. I hate working sunday.....

Hmmm where shall I begin.

I got into the shower but to my dismay it was clogged. However, I did manage to wash my hair so it turned out okay. I went to work so I could pay back some of my co workers for all the money they lent me. Alot of them werent there yet so I stuck around and talked with meg for a bit. Meg and I eventually went to subway together at walmart during her break. We took my car which was a suprise for me because I thought she was scared to get in my car or something. We went back to work (i wasnt working) and we talked for awhile longer.

I left work and went to my old place of employment (Boomer Mcloud). I bought an Audiovox Code Alarm security system for my car. It cost me $60. I really need one now that the weather is getting nicer and my car is getting nicer as well. I then returned home to find my mother in a panic about the internet and phone. Apparently the damn cable guy messed everything up so I got really frustraited and went out again with my tools.

I went back to work and began to put truck liner in my cars trunk and frunk (front trunk). It came out pissa! When T-VO arrived i started installing his new components i sold him. It came out awsome but didnt sound the best only because he didnt setup his amplifiers correctly. I went out to eat with my old step dad because I feel bad for him and he has no one else anymore.

From there I went home got frustraited a bit more and left. Went back to autozone for the 5th time today and just started talking to john, rich, clev, and lester. Meg called and told me she was bored but there was nowhere to go with a little girl. I wanted to hang out at her aunts house again but the uncle was home so that wasnt an option.

I went to staples. The place hasnt changed a bit scince i worked there. I bought a 5 port network switch then headed over to best buy. I browsed awhile and was tempted to buy stuff.... I became a bit weak and bought a new CD. Serj Tankian's "Elect the dead". Serj Tankian is one of my favorite artists and he is the lead singer from System of a down. His voice is powerfull and the messeges he sends are even more so.



I got home, started working on cleaning my room and hooking up the new internet and phone. I stopped a few times to work on a friend of meg's (vicky) project. I am pretty good with photoshop and didnt mind helping out.

Here is what I came up with:

aint it purdy?



here is my new network...its teh suck.

Today was a reletivley uneventfull day. I went early in the morning to an elderly mans house to help him install an alternator but to find that the A/C system had to be removed to do it, so we gave up and I left. I then went to work to fix brandons radio which I also failed at because his truck is so damn anoying.

After that I showed up at work 30 thousand more times today, I think I was a little to happy when I returned the radiator cap for cash. Oh well. I went to my aunts house today, she made me spagetti with some spicey sauce. I went and did my taxes too. I will be getting money back as well as loosing money but its all good, i still get that rebate.

I got home and worke don the MR2 a bit. I changed some trim around and painted some stuff.

I went online and started listening to random things on youtube and came across this song. I like the chorus.

Imogen Heap - Clear the Area



Knock, knock…are you alone?
No one’s out here and I was not followed.
Love, love…you’re already home.
Party’s over and you don’t look so good.

You find your way back down.
And I’ll keep the area clear…please clear the area.
When you find your way back down…in one piece.
Then I’ll just be waiting here…right here.

Low light…mercury morning…
No need to stay as it’s always nothing.
But your eyes tell a whole other story…and I feel the weight of the world.
You Won’t talk…You Won’t try…just move…
It’s too still in your sadness.
Cry…give up…it’s okay…
You’ve just got to trust me.

You find your way back down.
And I’ll keep the area clear…please clear the area.
When you find your way back down…in one piece.
Then I’ll just be waiting here…right here.

Slowly…darling…nobody means anymore to me than you
If you’re in…baby then I’m in (into this)…with you, always.
Careful…close to the edge…(You’re scaring me)
Fall in to my arms….(away with it all)
Fall…into love…love

You find your way back down.
And I’ll keep the area clear…please clear the area.
When you find your way back down…in one piece.
Then I’ll just be waiting here…right here.


You find your way back down.
And I’ll keep the area clear…please clear the area.
When you find your way back down…in one piece.
Then I’ll just be waiting here…right here.

You find your way back down.
Way back down,
And I’ll keep the area clear…please clear the area.
When you find your way back down…in one piece.
Then I’ll just be waiting here…right here.




Im going to be doing wampatuk this summer again. Last time I biked it was in 2006. Boomer Mcloud took up most of my free time. But scince i have a retail job with days off I can finally go enjoy the outdoors again. I need to get my mind of other things that stress me out and focus more on myself and just loose myself in the wild.

Hey kids do you like primus? Wanna see me stick 9 inch nails through each one of my eyelids? Wanna copy me try acid and get fucked up worse then my life is?

Today was a fun day, I came into work early got alot of shit done the district manager caught me picking my nose and I pissed meg off. She is so cute when mad har har har!

She says she will take me out for ice cream but she is a liar!!!!! EVARERRRRR




This one is for Meg....

When I woke up at 11am after sleeping 12 hours I knew the day was going to suck. Sometimes I can wake up and just feel bullshit coming.

I have no time to do anything so I just hop in my car and leave for work. I get to work and im miserable right off the bat (great start to the week). I stand around and help customer after customer for about 2 hours and then get fed up with it, time was moving so slow I had to speed things up. So I ended up doing a few displays and I organized the whole oil wall, that killed most of the day. It was raining outside and to add to my misery my cars roof started leaking. It was very busy at work and the customers were extra irritating today.

Towards the end of the work day Meggi text messeged me back and asked if I was still up for ice cream. (because the prior night she was indesicive). Her asking me this cheered me up a bit and gave me something to look foreward too after work. I hurried the closing tasks and drove my co worker home and Got ready to meet up with meg. I called her twice no answer, texted her, no answer... And Finally as I was driving past her house to go home she text messeged me saying she was gonna stay at her friends house..... That basically capped my day of shit. I mean Im not asking for a date or anything, I just wanted to hang out and chat. She says she trusts me but I dont belive her anymore. Im not mad at her or anything, im just frustraited because I try to much. Im not going to try anymore. If she wants to go to the junkyard or anything she will have to ask me. Im done asking.

So basically today sucked ass and Nothing good came of it. when It rains, it rains bullshit. And im really pissed off about it.


**However on a side note, not all was bad. After i got home about 2 minutes after i got in my parking lot my old friend from highschool called me and I went to his house. We drove around in his new Civic Hatch and listened to crazy fucked up music from the 70's like Mc Aurthurs park. It was alot of fun hanging with him because we both have the same humor and no one understands my retarded jokes more then him. He then drove my MR2 and complimented me on a job well done it was fun.

I took the long way home from randolph and drove slowly listening to my music and enjoying the soggy night air. Just me and my MR2.

Tommorow is work, I hope this week turns around....

For some strange reason the past 3-4 days have been very weird for me. I have had the feeling of pure joy sustained through the entire day and My days go by very quickly as if im having the time of my life, and yet I have tons of bills and debt, I may be kicked from my home, and there is a whole bunch of other shit i wont even begin to type about.

Not only have I been happy, but i have been making others happy. It seems the Brian people knew in highschool is coming back, im getting back to my goofy care free ways again. it wasnt always a good thing but it makes meghan laugh. This week did kind of suck because I had more days off the usual and barley made 38 hours. I usually make 40+ hours a week.

I cant belive its sunday already, The week has gone by so fast that I dont remember most of it. All I know is that Last sunday felt like it was yesterday and there is a whole week missing from my life.

Something crazy happend to me last night, a guy almost rear ended me because he was in a hurry to get to a red light for no reason, he started honking and riding my bumper so i flipped him off and he tried following me to my house. I dont want anyone knowing where I live so I did a 180 spun my tires up and I was gone. The adrenaline was pumping and I was driving like I never had before. I ended up pushing my car to its absolute limits and MAN IS IT FAST!!!! it was such a fuckin rush. I burned rubber all they way into 3rd gear.

Friday night I wanted to go to bed early for school the next day but my stupid family and friends would shut up and I ended up staying up till 3am on saturday. I woke up at 7am and went to school, I got to work around 12pm and I was instantly bombarded for hours by tons of customers. Towards the end of the day scott ordered some mushroom pizza and it was delish. I left work in a hurry because I just wanted to get home and sleep. but as soon as I got home i got my energy back (probably from the pizza).

Me and Meg talked awhile online, she wanted ice cream and when I offered to take her out for some she was very indecicive. She must be really shy or something (she says she is). She kept me going for a good hour and then I finally up cause it got to late. I was a bit dissapointed but oh well. We agreed we would make up for it another day. It was late anyway and i needed to clean my room.

Here I am sitting on my computer at 1am on a sunday. So tired.... Ive been awake at least 18 hours now. Im going to bed....

Chow




This is how i feel

I was awakend by the sound of my alarm this morning at 8:30. I had planned to get up but I was so damn tired. I ended up tripping over the crap in my room to run and shut off the alarm. I reset the alarm for 9:30 and hopped back into bed. Just as I shut my eyes and rolled over I recived a text messege from meggi. She informed me that jon was slacking and didnt show up and I should come in.

I needed the extra hours so Like lightning I threw on my shoes, socks, pants, and shirt and ran out the door a total disorientated mess. I arrived at work just ast the truck showed up. Today I acted very silly, My true nature was showing through. Im finally getting comfortable enough around my co workers to act like myself. Im glad I did today, I had so much fun just goofing around. I made meggi laugh all day with my antics. When she laughs I laugh and thats what makes me happy.

The feeling of hillarium lasted throughout the day and My day went by in a flash. 10 hours went by and it felt like 1 hour. I bought Meg a camera cable for her Pentax. It was $20 but it was worth it. I dont think any photographer should be without proper equipment. Plus she likes her pictures and I like helping people out. I showed her my camera (Nikon N90s from 1993) and She started running around the store taking pictures of random things. It was overall pretty amusing.

After that I put my camera away and we agreed we would go to the junkyard sometime soon and take pictures. I think a cloudy day would be best for a dramatic overcast effect. Cloudy days are great for a nice depressed or more gritty look.

My Car is running better then ever, but I think im gonna stop driving it now that its perfect. I need to perfect myself now. So a bit of biking is in order.

In the words of the great Tupac Shakur "Today was a good day"

Peace gangsta's

A sound so loud it echo's through the night.
Everyone can hear, but cant always see.
Gasoline, oil, and Metallic parts working in a perfect symphony.
The car moves nimble through the corners, a ballet of steel.
First, Second, Third, Boost! My back pressed against my seat.
Faster faster! My heart screams, 4th, 5th....
The feeling of power intoxicates, I am drunk with speed.
Brake! Shift down! Throttle! Quickly so not to lose the pace.
A smile of satisfaction, A focused stare. Happiness is only a Gear away.


I suck at it, but I thought id give it a try scince :p


Today was a good day for me, I woke up at 10am and started working on my car. I tried to mock up my side mount intercooler that I spent 3 months getting and $70 in parts. It turns out that the damn intercooler wont fit. Ive wasted my time and money. So Instead I install my oil pressure gauge, that went very well. I decided my car needed an oil change and did that too. I took a lunch break and talked to Meg online for a bit. Then I left to go help my friend put his exhaust on. I went to autozone and helped him choose his parts then we went back to my house to install it.

I left late for school and arrived around 6:30. Class was quick and I was out by 8:30. I arrived home to find my room a complete mess. I hate my room. I need to clean it.

"Lilium" by Kumiko Noma. - From Latin to English


Os Iusti meditabitur sapientiam
Et lingua eius loquetur iudicium
Beatus vir qui suffert tentationem
Quoniam cum probatus Fuerit
Accipiet coronam vitae
Kyrie, Ingnis divine, Eleison
Oh quam sancta,
Quam serena,
Quam benigna,
Quam Omoena,
Oh castitatis lilium.

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The mouth of the just shall meditate wisdom
And his tounge shall speak judgment
Blessed is the man who endures temptation
For, once he has been tried
He shall recieve the crown of life
Oh Lord, Oh holy fire, Have mercy
Oh how sacred,
How serene,
How benevolent,
How lovley,
Oh lily of purity.

Ok so I was a bit dramatic this morning about my bills, I really needed to vent and this place seems to be the place to do it scince no one really reads my bullshit.

Ive calmed down and come to the realization that I am alive and well, have friends and people who care about me and Im not that that bad off. I have debt and money problems but money isnt everything.

I went to work around 12 noon in a piss poor mood, everyone else was happy and after a few hours of focused work I ended up feeling better. (working is a big stress reliver for me). Meggi brought me a sandwich, which made my day. And this time there was a bonus! I got a pepsi with it!!! :p

During my lunch i checked out meggi's camera for her and noticed that her camera uses a proprietary USB style plug. I drove to walmart and staples and could not find an adapter for it. So i decided I will just order one for her. I need to pay her back for the sandwiches somehow.

After that, I noticed my car smelled more of gas then usual so I went home jacked it up and got underneath to find my vapor line was diconnected to my relief. I plugged it back in and went on my way.

After lunch the day went soooooo freaking slow. I ended up re-taging and putting new hooks on all the lighting accesories, the store got really busy till about 8 and then it died down and thats it.

I feel that I need to get rid of my anxiety and stress. I may pick up a good book i saw in barnes and noble last nite. It was pretty cheap and it may have some good tips for me. Stress kills, and I have a shitload.

This is total suckage. I wake up and go to take a shower and my mother tells me that housing said because of my job at autozone I now have to pay something like $650 for rent a month!!!! I only make about $590 every two weeks.... thats the fucked up part. So a good 1-1/4 of all my money for the month would have to go to rent for living at home.

I dont want to pay $650 to live in this hell hole. There is no respect in my house, no one can just shut up they yell constantly all through the day and night. They will go in your room and take your things without asking and I can never just sit down and relax. I come home and I am constantly stressed out by it. My mother is the worst, she will invite her friends over on nights that I have to go to sleep early for work. If i have to get up at 7am to be at work by 8am she will have her friends there until 2:30 or later in the morning laughin and screaming and the kids will be awake.

Not only that but I cant stand the lunacy of her and her "boyfriend" (he is 22, im 21). I need to get the fuck out, but how? How do i leave if I make no money?

Lets break it down, here are just some of the things I owe money for:

This months bills
$598 is Due for insurance or else im cancelled (this month)
$650 is Due for my cell phone bill (which I need to get back on)
$100 is the minimum needed for gas to get around for the month of April.
$180 is the minimum needed to have $6 burger king lunches every day for lunch (scince there is no food in the house)
$40 is needed to keep my prepay active for a month
$60 to pay back my friend charles
$150 to pay back my friend Ed
$50 to pay a guy I owe money to

long term debt
$4,500+ is owed to South shore hospital and I have collectors down my back for it
$51,000 is owed in student loans

So in total for the month of April I have to come up with: $1,828.00 and I have started the month with only $23 in my pocket. I only make on average $590 every two weeks.... So even if I saved all my paycheks at the end of the month id still only have $1,180.00....

....Thats $1,180.00 money that I will earn....against $1,828.00 in monthly bills, not to mention I now have to come up with $650 for the rent.

So the grand total for this month that I need for money is $2,478.00 Im about $1,300 short of that and there is nothing I can do.

Looks like I will never get out of this hole, maybe I should move far away and leave my troubles behind.

I got back from Conneticut this morning around 11am. It was a very long and boring drive and I didnt enjoy it as much as going down. And for most people this is the other way around. (time goes slower when you are anticipating something i guess). I was pretty sore throughout my body because I slept on a floor with almost nothing and it was very cold in the room I was in.

When I arrived home I had discovered my room to be askew. My brothers had gone in my room and took some of my DVD's. I was very furious. That was the FIRST thing to ruin my day.

I had my friend Wes drive me to the registry so I could re-register my car and pay my $50 fine for my inspection sticker. We got all the way there and i found that I didnt have any cash on me and the registry only takes cash. So we drove my MR2 all around quincy to find a damn ATM. We finally came across one and just as I pulled into the bank parking lot when I cracked my VERY RARE AND EXPENSIVE front bumper on the ground because the retards who designed the parking lot couldnt accomidate for smaller vehicles. That was the SECOND thing to ruin my day.

I finally make it to the registry and it is packed wall to wall with people. Last time let me do both registration and fine at the same time at the same window. This time they made me go through the line twice. So i had to wait there Twice as long as Id have to. In the end I saw the same woman at the same window so it was a waste of my time. That was the THIRD thing to ruin my day.

I went to my work to grab some fittings for my oil presure sensor and noticed Meggi was kinda havin a bad day from the looks of things. For some reason I think I may be partly to blame, but some people say I should stop blaming myself so much. I dont know. So that was kinda puzzling.

I came home finally brought all my tools into my room and really messed it up and sat down and started making a video from my trip (which will be up shortly). After a few hours of that and checking forums I ended up going back out with Joe and Wes to Autozone to check my schedule once again cause I forgot and then buy some Engine Brite and Purple Power to clean my engine.

We went to Barnes and Noble afterwards and we browsed the store. I went to the music section and listened to classical music, Mostly Mozart (my fav). There is lots of cute girls hanging out in there too, maybe i should go hang out in the book store hehe.

Bright and early at 9am me and Wes woke up. We drove to the nearest burger king and had some breakfast.....Burger king breakfast food is nasty. It always makes me feel sick afterward.



We started work on his car and i quickly realized how fucked up it was.... I had to rewire alot of shit on it and he had so many loose wires hanging around. His battery cables were the worst. So we made a list of what we needed and drove to the nearest autozone in norwich CT.

When we got there i noticed that the store was quite miserable compared to my store, everyone seemed pissed off and like they wanted to die. Except one girl. She was running around and greeting everyone and had a very chipper additude. I knew where everything was but she grabbed the list from my hand and ran around the store and got everything I needed. At the checkout counter I showed her my Autozone Employee discount card and she asked me about my store and if any girls work there and then told me that its alot of fun in Norwich CT and I should move down there and work at her autozone. Then She told me there was an all girl autozone in Groton CT. I tell you she was a trip. Too bad I live to far away haha.



When we got back Me and Wes worked on the car for the next 6 hours until dusk. We Bled the brakes, rewired most of the car, fixed some vacuum lines, and removed his A/C system. We ran into another problem with the Oil Pressure gauge and the power steering but he decided to go without power steering and just use the oil pressure gauge instead.





We called it a night around 8pm and started cleaning up. Wes's landlord is a flaming racist towards americans so we had to keep it down and act like i wasnt there. We went out in Wesleys careavan to go and check out the biggest Autozone I have EVAR seen in my life! This place was probably bigger then most shopping malls. It had probably 35 register lanes, 10 self checkouts, a Mcdonalds, a Full grocery store, a barber, a nail salon, an arcade.....it goes on and on and on! Pure insanity. They even had benches in the isles for all the fatties.... And there were no shortage of the wallmart peoples... This place was 24hours and it was sunday at 11pm the freaks were in!

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Me and Wes went to wendy's for our late night dinner, after that he said we should see foxwoods before I leave and he drove the jalopy of a van to the casino.



This casino was massive, walking around it was like walking around a small town. I could have easily gotten lost. I almost forgot we were in a casino, there were more little shops and resturants then slot machines, and there were live concerts going on and a huge museam. This was big time money, im shudder to think what kind of crap they have in las vegas.





"Me in front of a praying indian at Foxwoods"


"This is wes standing in front of the large waterfall/nature thingy"

So this weekend I am to go down to CT and help my friend Wesley Chan fix his AE86 1985 Toyota Corolla GTS. We will be doing alot of electrical, brake, and engine work while im there.

I was woken up early by the sound of my phone ringing from a text messege my friend Meg sent me. She had replied to something I sent her the day before. I was so tired but it was better to get an early start anyway. I called my friend Wes to make sure he was coming down and to give him the directions to my house from CT. After much confusion on the phone I finally sat down and started organizing my tools. I have lots and lots of tools so this took about an hour. I put every tool i think we would need for the jobs into boxes and packed everything up.



Wes arrived around 12:30 or so and we began to load all the equipment into his fathers camry. We went over and woke up Joe and dragged him from his house and we all left to go to the junkyard. First stop however was Autozone! I gave wesley the grand tour of the place and he stood in awe of the sheer size of the place. I work at one of the biggest autozones in the country.

We spent a few hours at the local junkyards and getting lost in brockton for a few hours then we finally made it home to drop joe off.

Here is where the long part of my day started. My friend Ed needed a ride down to CT to buy a Corolla SR5 of his own. He had the cash on him and needed just a ride. Well new haven was a little past where we were going but me and wes were happy to take him there (for a small fee). We headed to fall river to pick him up and then drove to new Haven (total one way time = 2-1/2 hours).


"Ed and wes walking into a rest stop"

We arrived in New Haven in a huge Ghetto. There were riced out honda's every other car. And all the people were poor latino's. It was very sad place to be. But it felt quite gangsta. Ed took all of about 5 minutes to decide he didnt want the car and payed Wesley $100 to drive him back to Fall River, MA. (another two and a half hours).

After the long as trip back, and listening to ed and wes talk about what kind of cars ed could buy, me and wes stopped at a gas station to get gas, and I bought a sub.




After another long drive we arrived in Uncansville CT, Home of Mohegan Sun Casino around 12am. Wes used to work at Mohegan sun and gave me a grand tour. We walked around and i marveled at all the flashing lights and the fact people were smoking indoors. It was quite hillarious to see all these people wasting thier lives and thier money in this foolish place. However im slightly guilty because I spent $10 on a slot machine. I won like $30 but then lost it because i didnt stop so I walked away with $5.




After touring Mohegan sun for an hour we returned back to wesleys house which is 3 minutes away down the road. I slept on the floor and that was about it.

what a long freakin day that was.....

Today started off weird. I woke up around 9:40am to get ready for work. I read my forums and worked on a few things (like this blog). I arrived at work around 11:05 which is not normal for me because I typically arrive 30 minutes before my shift. The rain is pissing me off because it leaks through my roof through somewhere. I got so fed up with it I bought a whole tube of scillicone and put it through all of the gaps in my trim and on my windows. The windows still wont seal.....

My Diet plan is working for me, I lost 6lbs scince last week! I know weigh about 257lbs. I kind of messed up today by having burger king but oh well I was hungry.

The guys at work piss me off sometimes, I try my hardest to make it through the day and be friendly with everyone but it just doesnt work sometimes. They were pickin on my brother and brandon was being a dick and kept calling me smelly (i guess I had some BO cause I dont wash my shirts often) anyway.... he said this in front of a customer and they started laughing I got real angry and told him to fuck off. After the customers left I let him know where I stand, he shut up the rest of the night.

I got home from work and did the usual routine and talked to a few people online and read my forums then I started to get ready to go out. At 9pm I went out with Meg and her friend to the movies. We saw the movie shutter. It was really kind of stupid, i never enjoy scary movies fully because they are usually corny and the plots have huge holes. This one was really lackluster, i had fun tho hanging out with new people. Me and Megs friend Jacki might start working together on videos, she wants to learn from me. Im more then happy to teach.

Woo hoo! First entry tyme!

I started my day off tired because I was up late working on friends projects and learning a new song on the piano from Requiem for a dream. My boss Tom said i could come in earlier then 10am because my co worker was going to be transfered to another store for the day. So I decided to take advantage of this and go into work when the store opened (7am).

I needed the hours cause im really struggling with money, It really sucks but i feel i can get through it. I helped pick orders early on in the morning. Meggi brought me some food for breakfast, which I devoured before the truck came. Once the truck arrived I made sure to get all the floor stuff out of the way first. This was a big mistake because later in the day I was stuck out back by myself moving truck around and everyone (but meggi) up front was talking and not doing much of anything. They did help customers but they wouldnt do much of anything else. Rich got on my nerves and pissed me off, but it blew over.

When meggi came back from lunch she told me what a great job I did with the photoshop drawings. Meg invited me to the movies and her friend would pay. So tommorow (friday) I will be going to the movies with meg and her two friends. fun fun fun.

After work i just went home and practiced piano more, talked to peoples online then watched some videos and went to bed. I cant wait for summer my life is so boring right now, usually in the summer things pick up for me and i get to do alot more. Last summer was a blast and I hope this summer will be also.